Beautiful-ly dreaming <3

Sunday, March 30, 2008

Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it.

They did something dumb one day, like smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like 'maybe we should be just friends' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I love.

This is nt smthg i said i just found it on the net. No offence really! The first paragraph sounds so true isnt it? lol!

12:59 PM

Sunday, March 23, 2008

只因為我不想打擾

只因為怕你解釋不了

只因為現在你的眼睛裡

她比我還重要

我只好假裝我看不到

看不到你和她在對街擁抱

你的快樂　我可以感受得到

這樣的見面方式對誰都好

我只好假裝我聽不到

聽不到別人口中的她好不好

再不想問　也不想被通知到

反正你的世界我管不了

若不想問　若不想被通知到

就把祝福　留在街角

sounds kinda sad bt oh wells.. doubt many of ur wld noe anw! lol!

10:47 PM

This song so totally describes my feeling now.. just tt instead it is on my guitar it is on my bed..

The WORSE month i ever had in my entire lifetime i shld say... march.. wat a wonderful day.. cried my eyes out once again although i dunno whether it is worth it bt i just cant help it.. for some of u who noes about it.. some told me its ok to cry whereas some told me it was totally unnecessary..

i just cnt accept the fact tt just poof there it goes... seems easy to me to just say it.. it hurts in the morning to realise tt it is totally nt a dream.. i tried to act normal ystd bt i become a totally diff person the next morning.. im quite positive tt i can nv be the same again..

i just hate everything i am doing now.. just went for service ystd and they said unforgiveness kinda kills oneself from inside.. surely i am nw nt stopping it as tt is wat i am trying to do... oh God.. oh wells nvm.. i wont die so easily de so lets just see...

oh ya last bt nt least thnx for all those who have been there for me the entire night.

10:37 AM

Monday, March 17, 2008

this few days have been VERY tiring... tired of wat? crying of course... coz my gonggong passed away last wed morning and we are ALL feeling VERY sad about it... many of us cried our eyes out a number of times.. im starting to miss gonggong already.. my aunty they all say he will be back aft 12am tonite...

he is such a nice man. a nice husband, a nice dad and obviously a nice grandfather... he has such gd temper and character and we all cant bear to see him leave.. bt oh wells it might be a gd thing for him aftall as he was suffering and it hurts to see him like tt anw... lets just hope he is in heaven somewhere happy and without any sickness and pain... joining his siblings living in happiness...

finally the wake is over and our life has to go back to normal.. through this few days there are lots of things which i have learnt and the most obvious one was to treasure the ppl u have around u before its too late and who are the ppl who wld be there for u in time of crisis.. be it frens or family... i wld also like to thank all of u who have showed me love and concern during these tough time of mine.. =) life wld still have to go on and see u guys soon! tata!

10:02 PM

Monday, March 03, 2008

i had SOOO much fun today! we went to sentosa to see pink dolphins!! so cute la! how i wish i can bring them home can.. arh! bt b4 tt we went to eat at kou fu there.. abit stupid to eat there coz dam ex bt oh wells we nv eat breakfast ma... then gt 3 gurls in bikini walk her walk there then see free show lorh keke... we also exchanged gift for our 1st mth anniversary! darling gave me a snow globe with such a cuttteeee letter keke *muack*

then we eat fin le go watch show... then we went underwater world! so nice la! the fish all so BIG!! then to make it more worth we kinda went a few? rounds? lol! then i knew i had to buy smthg on the dolphins! they are just SOOO cute! then darling bought me a softtoy pink dolphin de.. keke so swt! then i so happy lol!

aft tt it kinda started to rain quite heavily as we walk then we decided to go back vivo there to mummum le... coz anw the rain so heavy stay there also like no use.. then so ex somemore.. so we went food republic to eat... then we went to the pet shop.. played arcade.. sit down.. rest etc la.. was quite nice just to spend time tgt ba=)

then we went back to j8 to have our dinner and we ate at kfc then aft tt quite late le then we walk by the park go home.. keke interesting things happened bt i shant elaborate! anw i enjoyed the wholeeeeeee entire journey walk correct le... so much for my *fei li* wo in angmoish tone? lol! then i reached home safely and so did my darling! lol..

Happy 1st month anniversary tml!=)
Thanks darling!

11:15 PM