shall talk about wat has happened for the past few week... realised tt it has been some time ever since i updated.. paiseh... coz i have been working for the past 3 weeks so was dam busy and FREAKING tired.. realised tt it is really better to study than work sia.. let me think about wat has happened for the past week.. hmm.. we had this core team gathering and we played football.. went late.. didnt exactly wanna go bt cox promised jerome tt i wld be ther so i die die have to go show face.. and OH YA! thnx joshua for shielding the ball for me if nt the ball wld be come flying towards me and *piak* on my face liao.. thnx really..=) and then was kinda scolded for kicking the ball wrong way or smthg.. nt scolded bt ai ya u noe wat i mean... anw nowadays i feel tt everything i do is wrong and tt something is telling me to STOP WAT IM DOIN! maybe i unknowingly heeded the 'advice' so have nt been enthu about church stuff and activities anymore.. shall talk about tt ltr.. went for NDP practice aft palm sunday mass today and HE pang seh me.. dunno where he went bt then yea wanted to leave quite badly coz i feel so lonely there! firstly tt is nt my religion and the few ppl i noe is limited!! i dun even BELONG there at all! argh! when it ended i was freaking glad.. then aft tt gt home le.. oh yea had a talk with gerald and shawn aft our session meet and was glad to be able to share with them stuff and vice versa..
haha this part of the post is removed due to the scary conssequences tt occured so yea maybe i shld nt have posted... anw everything will be fine to those who HAVE read it liao thnx=)
hmmm it has been about 3 days ever since i came back from camp le... issit? cant rmb la.. lazy to go think anw.. the camp this yr was totally different frm the first one i have been to last yr.. like TOTALLY... the big difference was tt last yr i went there as a member and this yr i am planning the camp.. for some reasons i was the facil IC for the camp on the end.. fortunately i had xavier to help me out during the planning and stuff.. THNX! to me throughout the whole entire camp.. there was only 2 parts tt i rmbered the most and it was the preparation of the water bombs and the washing of feet...
while preparing for the water bomb game, some of us had to go out to the field to go MAKE the water bombs... we had LOADS of fun and i really mean LOADS of it... we ended up getting alll wet even b4 we played the actual game... we poured buckets of water on each other.. throwing the bombs at each other and somemore gt ppl use hose la! cheater bugs.. bt anw.. it was hell lot of fun time we spent together.. all of us like aaron jerome chris mel becky and myself we really enjoyed ourselves or at least i did.. was thinkin tt it was quite painful when the bombs hit the u-noe-where places... i was staggering for awhile then aft tt ok le... we played the spin spin game also dam funny.. had to pass the polo sweet using the toothpick in the mouth.. was quite clumsy on my part aft the spinning.. i sat on the floor and aaron had to say why i can pkay until fall down la.. so embarassing... then dog and bone etc was ordinary...
another part of the camp tt really touched me was the WOF... i only allowed chris to wash my feet and the other way round... somehow i didnt allow others to do so to me is coz i thought tt i wasnt worhty enough for them and stuff.. i have tt i-can-wash-urs-bt-u-cant-wash-mine kinda logic... just somehow i think its too much coz i feel inferior.. maybe its just me.. trying to change bt i just cant help it.. maybe many ppl will think i am the happy go lucky kinda person bt deep down my self esteem is nt any higher than an ordinary human being...i noe my frens meant well so its alright... thnx gilly bearbear for the affirmation.. for andrew on those words of advice.. for xavier for helping me out when im in need.. for joac for being there when i needed a listening ear and stuff.. for aarona nd jerome for brightening up my days when im down.. gabby for the ALLIANCE!! haha.. and shar, mel, becky for the cam whore!! lol.. love ALL of u! and most imptly.. my darling CHRIS!! *muacks* really.. i thank God for u and ALL my frens.. thnx chris for sharing stuff and being there for me.. thnx all of u for ur affirmations and words of encouragement.. its really appreciated... thnx josh for helping me out during the WOF too! and ET and APY for the grp thinggy.. last bt nt least ALL MY LOVE FACILS! to "MY" Facils.. ET gabby josc fiona ben joac ET jeremy addison andrew darrengoh perry (jerome).. i love u all! thnx alot for u guys help! =)
overall the camp was great though of some screw ups here and there as long as it DID touched ppl's life im happy.. nt to worry coz it HAS touched at least one person's life which is none other than myself.. also great thnx to all those who wrote those sweet letters to me.. i love them too=) go PIGS! love ya!
p.s to all my frens in camp etc... let me die in ur place if im given a choice. pics frm camp===>
gt nthg to do so i shall update... hmm... gonna start work in about 2 days time le.. quite sian of it bt think of the MONEY! i hope i can like earn more coz i need to get clothes for my poly days! u noe how hard it is or nt!!! but anw.. ok i shall talk about ystd.. went to tp west cc for bball AGAIN in the morning.. suppose to meet chris exactly at 9.30am bt WHOOPS! u guys shld noe and then ken was there then we slack awhile b4 they came... then play liao fin then go bathe lorh.. then follow sebbs back to his hse there coz goin to my aunty hse there which is near is hse.. blur me wld prefer to go with someone in case i lose my way ma.. haha thnx sebbs! u made my day easier^^ then aft tt met ryan at tampines mrt and wats unusual.. he is late like AGAIN! then we went to eat at pizza hut.. we both had a hard time finishing our food.. TRUST me.. then went to get stuff then went for the STUPID ndp meeting.. waste my time LA! bt i gotta noe a new fren.. her name is called Elda.. shes a nice gurl;) hope to see her soon.. i better noe more frens there sia.. if nt if it gets bored im like SO dead la.. and anws.. quite bored and tired at the same time so shall look forward to our annual cyf camp! come ok ppl! yoohoo!
