Beautiful-ly dreaming <3

Friday, June 27, 2008

Nthg much to blog about today bt just wanted to share this song tt relates well about me for now at least.. bt b4 tt this week dunno wat happen to me that i have been feeling very tired and having headaches as and when bt oh wells heck.. my results aint so well so i must buck up and push myself more.. wonder if i wld actually force myself to my limit when i dun even realise it myself.. bt till then then we say ba..

You know whats funny?
Seems like every time I try to forget about you,
My feelings pull me back in.
You see, its crazy.

Ran across a picture you took of me,

And you crossed my mind

I still hear you sayin you love me,'

When I close my eyes

If I didnt go away to school,

Then where would we be?

Probably still together and somewhere happy.

If Im supposed to be moved on in a new relationship darlin,

Then why are you still hauntin me?

If you love something, let it go,
And if it comes back then thats how you know.

I got to the stop light then I made four rights.

Now Im back where I started,

And youre back in my life.

The further that I go the closer I get back to you

I say I moved on,Til Im reminded of you.

Can somebody help me?

To help me get out of this circle (out of this circle).

10:16 PM

Tuesday, June 24, 2008

[ My little thoughts ]

Cldnt sleep ystd night and because of that it got me thinking about many many things.. dunno if its gd or bad bt maybe sometimes it goes too wild and it turns uncontrollable.

firstly coz it was quite late i cldnt slp so kept goin into the living room and my bro was playing his game so i was like talkin to him and he replied bt abit only lorh.. then i went back to bed and toss and turn and then somehow i feel kinda lonely slping alone out of a sudden (though i have been for dunno hw many yrs le). then i think i will feel worse once my bro is gone.. haiz.. sobsobs.. i will miss him! confirm. though we always argue bt he is my only bro anw..

the next thing i thought about was wat gil said tt time when i told him about my r/s and stuff, dunno if wat he said was true bt it did kinda change my attitude towards it.. smthg he said struck me was "if i was him i wld have found it irritating.." maybe its true i mean who noes.. so i stopped watever i was doing from then on lo.. thnx for the talk anw.. hope ur doing well.. will be praying for u and ur family!! =) for some reason im worried for u bt maybe i shall just keep inside la hor.. haha..

must be thinkin i dam free to think so many things right... told u i cnt slp liao ma! KEKEXD went stationary shopping with my bro today! so fun.. i love buying stationaries keke.. have ur heard buy stationary to until about 50 bucks or not!! so funny.. and thnx kor! (coz he paid for all of it ahahah!=P) such a meanie right lol.. i think wat i can do now is to spend as much time with him b4 he fly ba! all the best!;)

=there are many more thing that is worth my time than academic satisfaction (I finally uds wat u meant)=

10:22 PM

Monday, June 23, 2008

i have been so busy recently that i wanted to blog about envoys camp and stuff also cannot and since it has been some time ever since the event so i shall make it short and swt kekeXD

the camp was not too bad just tt i think that the games are too short and there is quite an amt of time wasted here and there so ya.. oh yes.. I LOVE GSS!! the best grp i can imagine haha.. most of them are nice ppl! throughout the whole camp i suppose its ok la except tt i was dam piss with one grp bt i shant mention bt some of u might noe coz i was bitching about it.. whoops! lol..

these few days very busy coz rush proj and coz sch starting then must get back into the mood and start realising where u stop b4 the hols haha! today is shannon and sujesh's bday.. HAPPY BDAY DEARS! lol.. and first thing in the morning had presentation.. was rather piss with some bt oh wells its over and i shall nt brood over it le.. anw we are still a class!

okok i go my stuff le.. update soon! lol=)

10:20 PM

Monday, June 16, 2008

woke up in the morning and have to start doin my proj le.. all pile up until i wanna die liao... sian! i suppose i cant do all at a time ba.. brought it for con 2 camp and doin in the guys hall where they slept at night bt it was kinda scary coz i was the only gurl in the room i scared they disturb me haha.. bt sebbs was nice enough to ask me call him if they disturb me using gil's phone bt then aft it was gone then i felt so insecure so i cldnt concentrate le i went out keke..

went for breakfast with the rest on day one of the camp and had to wake up SUPER early.. luckily my dad fetch me to the 88 bus stop then no need walk so much kekeXD oh ya and those who replied to the mail came late and those who didnt came on time instead WT*! haha.. bt in the end all came la so it was fine=) everyone tt went include my wife, myself, gilbert, boomy, eugene, sam kwah, val, cheryl, angie, raymond, jac.. they are all fun and nice ppl! I LOVE ED!;) they brighten my day really...

slept in the "ED store room" with all the mattresses it was dam comfy bt also dam dusty.. bt overall wasnt tt bad la and so THANKS EUG AND SEBBS! poor them were freezing outside the hall there.. luckily i returned sebbs jacket if nt he become ice berg liao=P we were all woken up twice because they needed to take the matresses which darling was slping on, we all dunno who it was even eug and sebb who were "guarding" our room outside... all so seh.. so funny...

the camp was ok la bt i was just freakin tired throughout the camp and slept when i had the time lo.. it was fun la haha! didnt get to mix with the con 2s much as i was with ED throughout and was kinda tired opps! the shifting of equipment was tiring bt when i see all of us put in effort i also feel very nice.. like one big family kekeXD

came home around early evening ystd and was dead tired bt had to do proj so i did abit first then went to slp lo.. felt a little fresh aft the bath ma... then went out for dinner to celebrate father's day.. the food was gd bt i cldnt feel the food and drink somehow lol..

ltr still goin for camp.. yawnz... so tired.. bt i hope it wld be fun! think it wld be la coz i suppose my grp members are nice and fun ppl right? lol! go GSS!! haha.. havent packed bag.. maybe when im back frm camp then i tell ur wat happen ba!;)

the camp was ok la bt i was just freakin tired throughout the camp and slept when i had the time lo.. it was fun la haha! didnt get to mix with the con 2s much as i was with ED throughout and was kinda tired opps! the shifting of equipment was tiring bt when i see all of us put in effort i also feel very nice.. like one big family kekeXD

came home around early evening ystd and was dead tired bt had to do proj so i did abit first then went to slp lo.. felt a little fresh aft the bath ma... then went out for dinner to celebrate father's day.. the food was gd bt i cldnt feel the food and drink somehow lol..

ltr still goin for camp.. yawnz... so tired.. bt i hope it wld be fun! think it wld be la coz i suppose my grp members are nice and fun ppl right? lol! go GSS!! haha.. havent packed bag.. maybe when im back frm camp then i tell ur wat happen ba!;)

1:27 PM

Friday, June 13, 2008

ouch my face hurts.. lol coz this morning cum aftnoon i went swimming with chris and clarissa kekeXD their intention was to tan bt coz i have natural tanning oil in my genes i reached there much ltr then them i was still tanner lol.. their tanning oil doesnt seem to work bt i think their efforts paid off as they get tanner aft quite some time..

i was then swimming about while waiting for them to get tanner as i was much faster than them and then soon enough i got chris to join me and she was so cute la wear contacts to swimming tt she cnt open her eyes in the water and while swimming she banged onto the walls of the pool!! muahaha!! u shld have seen it was dam lame...

aft tt we ate at the canteen there then we walked separate ways.. they went home and i went to j8 to get subway cookies!! then shun bian take bus home keke coz i walked there de and it was "quite" far i suppose.. then i realise i quite long nv swim le then nw muscle abit ache.. just reached home and bathe then in about half an hours time i goin out again to plaza sing meet the rest.. tired!! haha tts for it nw maybe ltr i continue=)

4:21 PM

Thursday, June 12, 2008

i came across smthg and i kinda feel that my inside is so painful at times that physical pain is more "feelable" maybe tts why some ppl prefer to cut themselves or smthg.. oh wells maybe its gd and then maybe i wld dare do more thing next time if i dun fear things as much anymore=)

days have been gd for me i suppose... at least nw i have time to chill with my frens and get some ample rest.. both physically and mentally.. actually sometimes come to think of it i dun really wanna grow up just yet.. too many things to think about..

ystd went with sam shawn and amelia to donut factory to eat donuts keke quite fun and its nice too! oh ya tc of urself k shawn! dun kill urself inside lolXD will miss ya! then went to kfc aft a few hours then they acc me go orchard makan then i went for jap class le.. rained VERY heavily aft i came out so had to call home for help and yes my daddy came to the rescue! lol.. he picked me up at the busstop keke... so cold sia.. somemore i wearing short dress-.- even worse lol..

today laze at home till evening then went to mirarma hotel to eat japanese buffet.. wah SUPER yummy can... the salmon sashimi was just WOAH! dam thick.. and the other stuff was nice too! then eat until dam full then went back home le.. oh ya for once i ate the cucumber and carrot raw just likee tt! it was super crunchy really.. then nw i reach home and just relax lo.. oh ya btw thnx gilbert for the talk ystd nite!;)

12:17 AM

Friday, June 06, 2008

Just fin this emo show but then i learnt smthg from there is that everyone needs a way to let off their emotions bt just be careful in which way you approach it...

she also said smthg about the one that can hurt you the deepest are the ones u love the deepest too.. at least think from the bright side that goes to show hw much i USED to mean to u and vice versa.. nw think about it is kinda sad bt oh wells i deserve it ma.. kinda regret letting u go so easily bt guess i have to learn frm my lessons! all the best to you and thnx for everything=)

12:05 AM

Sunday, June 01, 2008

Came home at about 12 plus ystd nite coz went for bbq=) it was a nice gathering aft such a long time sia.. really quite long nv like tt chill le.. it was quite fun la.. the guys as usual like boys like tt play around dunking ppl into the pool lol! poor becks and mel was totally wet! hahahaha.. the 2 poor things me and aaron gt 3 more papers to go.. luckily nv dunk us=P ate until quite full... about 11plus my wife and i walked home and tt why we so late then reach home keke=)

love the times we are alone then we can talk our hearts out.. we can practically talk about nthg under the sun sia... from insects to i dunno wat la haha! oh ya and dun think so much k darling! im sure things will be fine for u=) im sure ur so called "pms" period is over le so dun so fierce k! haha..

go home bathe then about 2 plus then slp aft watching some show lo..

woke up then ate brunch then studied then went out for dinner with my bro and fish and co.! thnx bro for the treat again! keke=P i think its gd tt sometimes parents not around then we all just walk around and chill ourselves.. i mean he is goin aussie soon le so spend as much time as we can tgt ba! i've learnt to treasure ppl who treasures me too so tt i wont regret when they are nt around anymore!=)

till then i wld live my life happily ever aft!! i hope!! kekeXD *winks*

10:16 PM