Beautiful-ly dreaming <3

Monday, October 30, 2006

went to school early in the morning today for my mt o lvl retake..SIAN LARH.. then guess wat.. i actually lost my confirmation slip for the retake paper.. then went to school early to go office and get the replacement shit.. then ystd nite cnnt slp sia.. went to bed at 12 then toss and turn until 1 i think.. then dreamt twice.. first one dunno was playing wat shit then the second one dunno why then was crying?!?! haha.. dun laugh..XD so practically i was "ON" the entire night and when i sat for paper 1 today i was bloody hell DOZNG OFF! argh! was thinkin of completing the paper earlier then can slp but i took more than half an hour to search for words on the dictionary! tt is the no. of words i dunno how to write! then supposedly both paper fin at 12 so i told my dad wait for me at 12 but the EXAMINER la! drag and drag... then paper 2 i fin earlier but was worried my dad wld scold me so cant slp.. -.- it ended like at 12.45pm! wat is making things worse is tt i am so damn bloody sick la! i HAVE to recover soon and fast man.. o's are comin and i DUN CARE!.. geeez.. seriously i dun like exams u noe.. -.- then aft tt i was the first to chiong out of sch sia... and the private candidates some dress until so BIMBOTIC! cnnt stand it sia.. then theres this girl nt say very skinny came in YELLOW SHORTS! ai yo.. ugly like shit.. ir maybe its nt ugly but its DISGUSTING!.. geez.. tts for now.. feel so fat so may go jog later ba.. tata! =)

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seriously i am damn pissed with my parents u noe.. this is how they encourage their children to tell them things?!?! i happily went to eat with them in the kitchen so tt we can have a talk and my dad actually scold me coz i told them i lost my confirmation slip.. i mean how wld they bloody hell noe if i didnt tell them at all.. a lesson learnt is nt to tell them anything unless they ask.. wtf la... so much for being open to them.. though i noe i shld get scolded but it sucks when they keep saying how much im nt serious about studying when i am like trying hard already! wat good timing they've got in discouraging me now when all i have is one week.. and congrats u have succeeded.. happy?!?! and he say tt if gt prob dun go to him if i dun tell him stuff.. i mean u think u can help? i seriously doubt so u noe.. wld u even noe if i didnt bloody hell tell u?!?! NO! they seriously dun think bout me okay.. tt is seriously wat i came to realise aft this time... all they see is wat i am NOT suppose to do but nt when i AM doin things i am suppose to but they JUST DUN SEE IT! ai ya forget it la.. they brought me to this conclusion and tts it.

1:59 PM

Thursday, October 26, 2006

HEY EVERYBIRDIE! thanks alot guys for all ur bday wishes.. though today i was kinda bored and didnt really go out coz maybe o's is drawing near and everyone also got no mood to go out and all mugging at home lo.. but i celebrated my bday on tue where my cousins and all came.. thanks to all who ca

me yea;) shall thank all those who wished me.. hmm.. let me think.. thanks to: greg-grace-rebeccaX-joachim-lynette-aaron-shawn-ryanB-benGwee-joshuaR-tres-mel-felicia-chris-clarissaL-willy-yongchao-gerald-lester-samantha-yupei-ame thanks to all of u guys for the bday wishes.. it is REALLY appreciated.. thanks for brightening my day... i thank god for all u wonderful friends yea;)

went to the park to meet chris so tt she can pass me the present. missed the park so much coz i haven been goin there ever since the STUPID haze began.. went there around 5 like tt.. then at the same time we brought angel along for a walk.. so cute la.. then walk until my aunty house there then so tired.. had dinner at her house.. quite some time i haven had home cooked food liao.. so poor thing right.. coz both parents working ma.. so like tt lo.. last time nv appreciate home cook food and now im missing it.. tts why i say NEVER regret wat u do or else i think it is worse than death!

9:41 PM

Wednesday, October 25, 2006

went out to watch death note ystd... though it ended very irritatingly but IT IS DAMN NICE.. why must kira and L be so handsome arh.. heheXD.. and i heard tt in further series L would die and i would be DAMN SAD.. sobsobs.. haiz.. they both so cute la.. seeing the fact tt my frens all studying like siao i still gt time go watch movie hor.. haiz.. see la.. stupid me.. kk shall nt update further.. next post ba!

read smthg and found it quite true and its nice.. here it goes..

love is not about finding the one u can live with but the one u cant live without.

5:48 PM

Friday, October 20, 2006

hi ppl.. yes i just had my o lvls sci phy chem prac ystd and i think i so screwed it up already.. shall nt talk bout it la.. coz its coz of me and my stupid mistake. told chris and aaron bout it.. haiz.. really ... its TOO stpid to blieve liao.. but anw as aaron said its over liao so shld nt brood over it lorh.. OH YA and guess wat.. i am using a macbook to type this eh.. AND ITS THE BLACK ONE! wah.. damn nice sia.. i want it too.. too bad this belongs to my cousin and now i am like at her house then can use one... still not exactly get use to it yet... keep missing the letters.. gt pros and cons la... BUT only aft o's then i can think bout it.. if nt a bit the depressing to think bout it now when u cant get anything! argh! ai ya anw gd luck to the ppl takin their o's.. a few more weeks and we are done.. jia you ppl! ")

11:07 PM

Wednesday, October 18, 2006

had a bad day today and gt nthg to type so ya larh.. everything is not goin the way it is suppose to.. DAMNIT! im damn sian bout life liao though i am only goin 16.. i wonder how i survive my further life.. i hope i can go into a slumber and only wake up when i want to.. seriously..

While your picture fades each day
In my heart the memory stays -------> xenosaga
Glowing bright, you're always smiling
And I will hold it close

Is this pain too much for me
Can I stay the same --------->xenosaga
When this pain consumes my heart
Will I be able to hold on to my soul

When you walk away
You don't hear me say please
Oh baby, don't go --------->KH2
Simple and clean is the way that you're making me feel tonight
It's hard to let it go

I know that you're hiding things
Using gentle words to shelter me
Your words were like a dream ----------> FFX-2
But dreams could never fool me
Not that easily

And though I know the world of
real emotion has surrounded me
I won't give in to it
Now I know that forward is the only
way my heart can go ------------> FFX-2
I hear your voice calling out to me,
"You'll never be alone."

11:50 AM

Friday, October 13, 2006

k larh k larh.. im suppose to be stress but it doesnt seem to be the case.. im just stressed that im nt stress when i am SO suppose to... i shall study la.. just imagine im just like 2 weeks away frm my o's OMG.. maybe i AM stressed liao.. shall go study le kay.. dun say liao larh.. haiz..

*let the rain fall down, awake my dreams, let it wash away my SANITY..*

5:27 PM

Thursday, October 12, 2006

ystd was one of the most fun days ever since my holidays started... went to school for amath lesson.. was the last extra lesson for amath and then at the end of the two hours i was FREAKING happy la.. my teacher was like.. 'girls this is the last lesson right?', then i happily said it out loud 'yes!' so embarassing la.. XD.. then aft tt i realised tt i may the only one goin for badminton then i made chris follow me.. apparently she doesnt noe bout it either.. hmm.. i wonder.. then she had to go home to get her racket then i go my aunty house which is just opp her house to wait for her to fin her lunch and stuff.. and guess wat? i took bout an hour to fin the bubble tea i bought when i reacher there.. haha!.. was quite full so yea.. tasted wierd.. shhh..:P the shop is at the st23 bishan there the market one.. was at aunty hse then she said smthg tt remind me of smthg and someone.. *___ dun think you so smrt hor..* chris wld noe wat i talkin bout.. haha.. gt a shock when i heard it somehow:P.. then i had to wash my shirt at the sink coz gt cheese stain.. then went to meet chris with a wet shirt.. so embarassing.. luckily nt tt obvious.. then chris also change shirt coz she ate lo mai kai then the CHICKEN DROP ONTO HER SHIRT! so embarassing.. ai yo.. so big liao still dunno how to eat properly..:P hehe.. then we went to play badminton.. was frm 2 to 5pm.. played quite long.. wah damn fun.. i feel DAMN FAT! so must E.X.C.E.R.C.I.S.E.. argh! then aft tt they all go bathe except me and chris so sticky and smelly.. :(.. then followed jeremy they all go here go there then nv follow them for dinner.. OH YA! nt alot of us went.. there was hmm.. let me think.. sebbs, gerald, rovi, jeremy, samkoh, mathilda, xavier and greg i think.. then supposedly we SAID we were goin home but then we landed in macs and we ate.. :P.. then all the exercise no pt liao.. see la.. how can me and chris possibly lose weight... hmm.. damn. then we go church pop by then see them again but didnt follow them.. then we were suppose to look for ame but we met the rest as in joachim they all then we follow them walk around coz didnt wanna go home which we SAID we were :p.. then they go bert house then daniel was with bert.. then go lor 8 to eat.. we didnt eat.. then bout 7.15 pm like tt we walked back frm lor8 and my dear chris didnt noe it was so near my hse and was so fascinated-.-.. haha! then went home by the park.. so nice lo there.. esp at night.. right chris? then was on the phone while she went home... just in case anything happen marh.. :p then gt home then rest lo.. then play audition and had shihlin oyster mee sua w/o eating the oyster.. stupid right? like eating chicken rice w/o chicken.. haha! lame.-.- then aft tt play game then supposedly there was SS test the next day but i TOTALLY forgot bout it.. when i WANTED to start studying i realised i didnt have my sec3 TB.. so smrt right.. im the 'smartest' person on Earth sia... haha!.. then both chris and i 'studied' for bout 10 min if u even consider flipping and browsing of pages as 'studying' then this morning go school for test we cld actually do it! amazing! hi5 man.. haha! gd luck to us =) then u must understand this few days i have been bored to death and i really need to have fun man.. YO! haha.. as wati have been told.. must study smart nt studying hard w/o absorbing knowledge.. so now i relax when its time.. dun wanna be tt stupid idiot who studies whole day w/o any pt anymore.. yay! GIRLS RULE.. right chris?! heheXD..

*used to go with the flow*
*im stronger than yesterday.. now its nothing but in MY way..*

6:30 PM

Tuesday, October 10, 2006

this few days is SO BORING! the boredom is so driving me crazy! i so bored until wanna cry liao larh... i noe taking the o's this year is like that one but i really wanna go out which i cant... there are also alot of thing i wanna do but i cant... this is torturous sia.. there are ppl out there like me also.. i feel like a *walking zombie* now la.. woke up this aftnoon just to realise that its nt in the morning but i just woke up from a nap.. sianz.. this few days like damn long for me la.. it seems as if i have been revolving around the same routine again and again.. im going crazy... this month is gonna be like jail to me man.. SERIOUSLY... i think aft this period of time i can be so happy that i can just die man.. :P.. just jk.. haha somebody save me (its a song lyric).. see ppl.. this is how bored i am man.. lalalala lalalala.. elmo's world..! GEEZZZ stop it paul.. :p I CANT STOP (falling in love with u.. ).. ai yo can anyone tell me what to do other than study here ?!?! hello?!?! MY GOD! i sure do need to die here man.. -.- eh.. wat shld i talk bout then.. hmm.. its a few days b4 my bday and i hope i can go out then.. XD maybe thats the thing im looking forward to now.. then aft tt wld be o's liao.. then during the exam period i hope the time wld pass faster than now then.. I HOPE! then aft tt IT'S THE END!! ARGH!.. joy to MY WORLD man.. haha.. ai ya nthg to say liao larh.. maybe u will see quite an often update nowadays based on the fact tt i so free which shldnt be the case! so ya la.. tata!

4:47 PM

Sunday, October 08, 2006

can anyone tell me why am i so SLACK now! i am not suppose to be one right.. haiz.. me and my laziness.. cnnt cnnt. must jia you liao.. of not i will be FAR FAR behind the rest then i will die sia.. i am feelind DAMN bored now la.. so decided to post lo.. though school stop for us liao.. but i still have to go back to school everyday nxt week for EXTRA REMEDIAL! argh! when will i have peace and so tt i can study on my own man.. damn sian of all these extra lessons liao.. sry to say but esp chem la.. i cant understand wat she so i may nt be goin.. i think i at home read TB can understand better than hear her talk man.. waste my time.. geez.. then i got so many HW and i am so gonna die la.. cant breathe liao.. *bloopbloop* (tt suppose to sound like drowning) :P and then gt nthg to do so i shall put lyrics.. damn nice de.. really :P :

I've been watching you awhile

Since you walked into my life

Monday morning, when first I heard you speak to me

I was too shy to let you know

Much too scared to let my feelings show

But you shielded me, and that was the beginning

Now at last we can talk in another way

And though I try, "I love you" is just so hard to say

If only I could be strong, and say the words I feel

My beating heart begins to race

When I turn to see your face

I remember that sweet dream which you told to me

I wanted just to be with you

So we could make the dream come true

And you smiled at me, and that was the beginning

Now at last we can talk in another way

And though I try, "I love you" is just so hard to say

If only I could be strong, and say the words I feel

Tell me what you're thinking of

Tell me if you love me now

I had so much I longed to ask you

But now the chance is gone

While your picture fades each day

In my heart the memory stays

Glowing bright, you're always smiling

And I will hold it close

10:35 PM

Wednesday, October 04, 2006

AND AND AND im back ppl to tell u more :_) coz for the past week i was very sad over my prelim results and so didnt really have the MOOd to update :p so yar lorh.. and now im somehow alive again and here i am! since last week till today i have been for two badminton game liao.. its usually the same few ppl who goes and they are mathilda, sebbs, darren, gerald, rovi, greg, jeremy, bernard, angie, willy and i think tts it ba.. one is on last fri and the other one is TODAY! i feel damn bloody fat larh.. supid FAT PIG ME!! and thats why i am going for gym tonight AND.. go swimming! very long nv swim le.. decide to go jogging awhile first then go swim.. wah.. so shiok.. happy that at last i get over my bad results and work harder for my o's.. JIA YOU PAU! =) i HAVE to do well or else i will just die i tell u.. no larh.. just jk.. i still got so many things to do where gt die so easily one... i still wanna get bf.. get married.. earn lots of $.. etc. so many larh.. now die is so wasted larh.. right?!? so in order not to regret aft my o's i have to do my best now.. another 2 more months and i will be F.R.E.E free-eeee! then as wat ben said.. will play until i die arh.. u noe wat i mean.. *grin* ^_"... now school having intensive revision.. so tired sia.. so many hw.. =( then got amath remedial aft school today... was quite ok larh.. got a total of 4 lessons and 1 has passed! yes..! luckily no nid to go for emath.. *phew* then i actually said outloud that i rather see mrs khoo than ms yap put loud.. HAHA! evil right.. but its ok larh.. i like it ma :P anw i feel so fat.. gonna go EXERCISE later.. MUST sia.. geezzz... *bloop bloop* i wanna lose weight=( (anw that was suppose to sound as if i swimming kay:)) and i think thats all for now.. bye bye =)!

5:54 PM